Here's the song. I have no idea what video that is though.
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Physical Being.
Belly full of curry and spices. Left achilles tendon slightly pulled from landing wrongly. Fingers hesitant to declassify so many secrets. Wanting to learn to swim (and swim the combat stroke). New goal set: Reach Navy SEAL standard minus the boots and long pants handicap, so in 11 minutes instead (give me chance first lah. One step at a time.)
1. swim 500 yards in 12.5 minutes or less, followed by a 10-minute rest
2. 42 push-ups in under two minutes, followed by a two-minute rest
3. 50 sit-ups in under two minutes, followed by a two-minute rest
4. 6 pull-ups, followed by a 10-minute rest
5. run 1.5 miles in boots and long pants in less than 11.5 minutes
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Mental State.
Read a few blogs (kudos to them). Reading Joko Ninomiya's auto-biography. Now have a better idea where I want to see myself spiritually (though not in a worship sense). I want to be a champion in spirit in life, and of life. (Words just don't cut it)
I've been living just for the competition. Just to temporarily boost my own ego when I compete and win against someone. And begin to doubt myself more and more for each defeat. The winning effects don't last, the doubt does. Champion for a fleeting moment. Loser for having not grown.
No matter how fucked up you are, you can still choose to be a Champion. Being a Champion is not about dominating others. Its about dominating myself, my fears, and stimulating my own growth.
In the area of loving others, I feel and agree that you have to love yourself before you can love someone else. Maybe I can just warn/care/lookout for them for now.
If I have an other half, I want it to be like this:
You are the milk in my tea.
Not something I can't live without.
Rather, something I would like everyday, just because.
(Yes this was ripped from someone else, I have trouble writing so subtly)
Of course I have a pretty good idea idea of what virtues I want to see in my other half, but I'ma check and fix myself first. Then hopefully it will reciprocated.
