I think my greatest weakness for the past 3 years (maybe many more) is laziness.I'm sure you kind of figured that already, but yeah, I just got reminded of it. It's still not pleasant.
During the 1st 3 months in JC, I made a friend who had a similar interest (that was then, I'm no longer sure about my interest) in aerospace stuff, the difference being that he wanted to go to SP, and study the electronics side.
One day we talked about 'after that'. He said NTU, whereas I being the rather hopeless dreamer, said MIT and talked about it, and started his MIT dream too. So after our time in JC, we went our separate ways, and now, with his scholarships and all, I would think that MIT has just gotten a lot closer for him. On the other hand, sometimes I wonder if NTU is even remotely close to me. And yes, I do feel envious, and want to kick myself (but it still would not help the situation).
I want to find a reason that would drive me. Not many things can beat passion, but I feel that I've already put one foot into this engineering grave, and have little choice but to follow reluctantly, and just need some murmurs to stir me.
However, I do realize that even if I qualified, I doubt I'd be able to go to MIT. Reason: Tuition grant bond.
Actually, that's not the only time I feel envious. Most, if not all the envy I feel comes from academia. Yet, it's because I'm not putting in enough effort. What cheek I have to feel envious!
"Without ambition one starts nothing. Without work one finishes nothing." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
